Sunday, November 17, 2013
I have spent the last few weeks looking for the lessons in the events of the past year and.trying to be grateful for those lessons. No doubt it has been a difficult time this last month as the story of Mark's infidelity and deciet unfolded, but I am in a good place now, looking toward my future rather than back at every detail of the betrayal. Life is just too precious to waste one minute, hour or day reliving a painful past. Most days I feel strong and ready to face the future, the dark days are fewer and fewer.
So the lessons are simple PAY ATTENTION and TRUST MYSELF. That's it. Turns out I had stopped paying attention to so many things over the past year- most importantly, I had stopped paying attention to my INTUITION. There were times when I actually felt like the other woman, when I ignored knowing I was being lied to, ignored when my gut was telling me something was wrong. I had also stopped paying attention to my needs, my passions, my hopes and dreams. I have spent some time going deep to figure out what all of that is again. I am making it a point to slow down and pay attention-whether it is to my thoughts and feelings, the people I pass on the street, or the beautiful landscape around me....I am just paying attention. Trusting myself, the journey, the universe, other people-that has been a little more challenging but I'm getting there....it will come, I am sure of it..
Moving forward I have decided to say YES to everything that comes my way...even if its scary. Not just YES but HELL YES. I am excited for the new year and all of the opportunities that are on the horizon...I am going to be 50 next year and plan on RAISING HELL. I have started working on my vision board for 2014 and it looks like it is going to be EPIC. I am committed to living WHOLEHEARTEDLY still and accepting the price of vulnerability that come with that.
As is my tradition I always choose a word or two to use as my theme for the new year......can you guess what 2014's is going to be"